Thank you for your comment, Daniel, I didn't know that the Greys measure only appx. 1,2 m in height - when I read it, the thought of the child-like ETs from the movie
Wavelength came to my mind. According to
Exopaedia, the ETs from my dream should be the "common type (A)" Greys. Have you had any other physical contact with a Grey, apart from shooting one with a shotgun, as David said in his
2012 Enigma lecture (01:19:16)? Is it true that in the black programs they found out that the ET physiology is like a vegetable and not like a body, so if you shoot them they don't get hurt? Did that happen also in your case? And if you did it, why did you do it? Did he want to hurt you? If I remember correctly, some ETs, maybe also the Greys, have some type of devices, with which they can paralyze your body. Was that a possible threat?
In the above mentioned lecture, David also said that "[you have] been psychically trained
(Who trained you, and why? Was it for Montauk purposes or some other programmes?), [you were] measured as a P7
(What does this mean?), [you] had a special psychic gift called a condoit
(Could you explain a bit more about this?), which allowed [you] to feel other people's emotions and thoughts very very strongly. As a condoit, [you were] able to take, have you seen the movie
Powder, [you] could do just that
(Is this true?). In fact, it's possible, because [you were] the only person they've ever found who could do that, it was possible that the movie Powder was written about [you]
(Does the main character's life story have any commonalities with yours?)."
In the same lecture, David said that your memory of the day when the accident with the monster happened was not erased, because you did not turn up for work that day - I believe you've already mentioned this somewhere on the forum. Who was supposed to erase your memory if it were to happen, and how would they do it? By hypnotizing you? How can you get your memory back? Can
dreams help you with that? Do you consequently have to map out your psyche in order to fill the gaps?
In his lecture, David also recounted an experience he had while on a trip. He said that he had a feeling that "if [he] did not create the floor under his feet with his mind, [he] would fall through the floor". Only yesterday I remembered that when I was a kid, I had such dreams a few times. I can remember that feeling, and it was not pleasant. I was somewhere high up in the sky and I was looking at myself standing on a white sqare tile, thinking that I must be careful when I step forward, because I had to create with my mind new square tiles under my feet. This also reminded me of a nightmare when I was small. Like all children, I used to sleep with my parents. One night when I went to bed, I couldn't sleep because first a huge cube and then possibly a rectangle (definitely the cube) kept appearing when I closed my eyes. My mother had to sit on the bed by my side for a while, with the light open, trying to calm me down. After some time, my parents got irritated and finally turned off the light. But that thing kept appearing every time the lights went off. These geometric shapes were being sort of pumped up, getting bigger and then smaller, and were rotating in the air - the background was black, while they were white. I think I also cried, because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to sleep anymore out of fear. By the way,
Djchrismac reminded me of my first deja vu experience when I was a kid. My cousins came for a visit. I was in my brother's room with my older cousin, and when I told him about my experience he laughed...
Recently, I was thinking about
psychocartography, which you mentioned quite a few times on the forum. In
Access Your Higher Self, David also mentioned it, as being called as such by the "insiders". Was he referring to you? Is anybody in the military or elswhere using this technique? Who developed it? Is it ancient or modern? Is there any material in print or on the web explaining this process except on
this website? Would you recommend it as a reference point, besides your posts throughout this forum? Would you recommend also to keep a record of daily experiences in order to better understand the dreams and be able to connect the dots?
In
this interview, you spoke about your fascinating
out-of-body experience. If you feel comfortable, you can say more about it. What was your "life mission connected to Montauk in the future [that] was critical for them"? Can you say something more about the "temporal clone" that they wanted to make out of you? If they didn't find you a new physical body as soon as possible, would your astral body have flown away, in the upper realms, and could not come back until there would have been a new incarnational opportunity? And why in the first place you could not get back into your body? Isn't that always possible when you have an OBE? The thing with the pentagram reminded me of
Svali's personal accounts on invoking demons and similar beings in the Illuminati rituals. The long period of rememberance reminded me of
Duncan O'Finioan's testimony of his life's experiences as an MK-Ultra super soldier and the car accident, after which he started to gain back his memories from his childhood and the work in the black-ops. His life story reminds me of the movies about Jason Bourne. What about the "Crowley crowd" at Montauk? If I remember correctly, you mentioned somewhere on the forum that the guys operating the Montauk chair didn't like their superiors - I think you wrote they called them Nazis. How does this tie in with the NWO, Nazi psychological and technological experiments and Crowley, if it does at all?
LoneBear wrote that "there are certain key players in the struggle for world domination by an elite group called the 'New World Order', which uses a lot of 'black magick' - manipulating the patterns of causality for service-to-self purposes. Unlike most groups, when they make plans, they can span several hundred years and several incarnations. There are similar groups in all the major countries." I belive somewhere someone already asked the question (maybe to Wilcock or to Svali, or here) about the (maybe only certain) Illuminati guys reincarnating in the same family bloodlines, but I cannot remember what was the other person's answer. Is something like this possible? According to Svali, their members are psychologically and physically traumatised since (and even before) their birth, which implies that they are not born as service-to-self oriented people but are intentionally raised as such (to a certain degree - if Svali made it, others can too, plus she said that most of them would leave "the Family" en masse but are afraid for their lives).
In
Shadow Operations - The Mars Project (23:00), David said that you told him that "there was a mission to Mars and that they actually found ancient bases, which are very extensive under ground - we're talking about hundreds of thousands of years old", and that the Montauk chair was used in order to go there. In Project Camelot's interview with David entitled
Jumproom to Mars, Bill Ryan said that one of their whistleblowers,
Henry Deacon, told them that "he [is] reluctant to talk about the so-called secret space program, the alternative space program /.../ he’s worried that if we go doing the unthinkable, and start congressional enquiries and real investigations as to where the trillions of dollars have gone, and what these scientists are doing in all these bases that don’t exist and so on and so forth, somehow the whole thing might be frozen and Henry was... he said this must not happen. He said it’s very, very important. "You don’t understand", he kept on saying. "You don’t understand. You don’t understand. This is very, very important, and the future of the human race might depend on it. THIS MUST NOT BE STOPPED. This is why it’s important that it’s classified." Do you agree with Henry? Is this really of such great importance? In one of his
interviews with Project Camelot from 2007, Henry said that the "terraforming of Mars has begun" and that the "'the secret space program' is well-intentioned (at least one of the programs) and is being managed by a group with the purpose of ensuring that the human race will survive, come what may. /.../ Henry again stressed the very high level of complexity, urged us to take our attention off intriguing issues such as Mars, exotic technology and alien visitation, and focus instead on immediate threats to our survival, freedom and reorganization closer to your home." Did they want to terraform it in case we kept following the "catastrophic" timeline? Or is it planned to be the new home for the "fence-sitters" as David calls them, i.e. those that will not make a conscious choice between service-to-self and service-to-others? The secret space program is also discussed in Project Camelot's interesting interview with
Garry McKinnon, who is being prosecuted for hacking in the Pentagon in 2001/2002. According to his testimony, he saw an Excel document with a list of "non-terrestrial officers" and off-world cargo operations somewhere out in space.
In
this forum topic, you wrote about the "return of the (mythological) Gods". Do you have any new information which you would like to share with us regarding this?
In
this forum topic, you said that the underground military bases that Wilcock wrote about in
two of his
articles were not destroyed by the "ETs, [but] just 'Ts'. It is not that their spiritual laws forbid them from intervening. They just didn't care enough about what mankind was doing, until mankind decided to massively poison the ocean and atmosphere with petrochemicals, then try to cover it up with biologics. They think of mankind like mankind thinks of dogs and cats... nice to have around, until they start shredding the drapes, digging holes in the carpeting and crapping on the bed. Something had to be done, and there is more to come." Do they really think like that? Is it because they have no families or because they have been living this life as anti-social people or as a "breakaway civilization" (in
Richard Dolan's terms) for too long?
Under the
links section, I noticed that there is a reference to the
blood-type diet. I would also add the
geno-type diet. They proved to be helpful to me. Having a balanced diet is very helpful for doing dream work. This was also nicely discussed in Wilcock's
Diet and Ascension reading.
Boy, this was long. It was ment to be just a quick reply, but then all those questions popped up in my mind and I couldn't resist. You can choose not to comment any question which you regard as too personal or dangerous to talk about if you want so. Take your time for the answers, there's no hurry. Thank you again for all your efforts on the forum!
I wish you all the best!
"You talk the talk ... do you walk the walk?" Kubrick, Full Metal Jacket
This way or another, I can't wait to start with the process in the coming weeks. 
