Once upon a once upon a time, I did the music thing. I dedicated twenty years of my life to training my voice and to becoming a vocalist with a 'message', trying to help people to see through things and to define this ever-elusive concept called Love. What is it? From whence did it originate? And could it hold the key to restoring balance to the seesaw of human life on Earth, which has sadly tipped far to the side of 'Chaos', 'Confusion', and 'Emotional Manipulation'? As the being said in Contact, when speaking of humans: "You are an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares." Why the imbalance? Well certainly, a not-so-friendly 'tweak' to our genetic coding and to the very stuff of which we are made by those who wanted slaves to do their bidding is a rather interesting take on things. I never did quite buy the stories of slaves hauling those massive stones up on wooden pallets with the assistance of beasts of burden. I remember thinking to myself as a child, "Really? That's how they did it?"
I used to think that Love represented the highest order that a human being was capable of attaining. Still do, on some level. I still believe that this thing called Love indeed is an important puzzle piece that can assist humanity in moving forward into a higher level of evolution. Funny thing is, so many seem to bandy these words about: "I Love you!" Those who seem so close - How they become such bitter enemies. How this cycle repeats itself, over and over and over again. Then people settle into a life with someone, and become a part of the system. That's good enough for them. What made me different; what with the fact that I have never become bitter or angry with those few who I've loved and who remain so close? Or the fact that I simply cannot and will not accept the paradigm created for me. I sought to find out the 'whys' of these and other questions, and hot damn has that search led me down some interesting twists and turns in the road of life. Yet, it wasn't until I came across the phrase, "The Powers that Be have so distorted the concept of love that it has become almost unrecognizable by most of humanity", that I came to a bit of a deeper level of understanding. And when the elements of rapport, peace, laughter, and compassion are added together, I understood: These are the elements of Love. These are the things of which it is composed. Then someone dear to me said, "Don't change people, change their environment". There again I understood it even more deeply. That was what I was trying to do, only back then, I didn't quite define it that way. Show them that things can be different, show them there's a better way. Build it. Live it. I think that they are capable of seeing, if the opportunity presents itself. And I am beginning to see now why the concept of Sanctuaries throughout the world is so very important. Heaven knows the world that is being planned for us is going to be 'their' version of Utopia, 'our' version of slavery, er, 'freedom'. For each person that sees through the bullshit, they will need a place to come to find respite. I still wonder what have I to offer to such a community. This question grows within my mind each and every day, for the false nature of the so-called society that has been created all around me grows heavier each day, despite my efforts to do the little things each day to bring order and understanding into my own life. Clarity will come with time, because I'm quite certain that I'm not going to be one of those who stays stuck in this quagmire forever. It's putting the pieces in place and building a solid foundation of self that enables one to take the next step.
So I want to share that which I worked so hard to express:
http://www.billymoschella.com and
http://www.serenitymusic.us
Forget the HUGE banner of my name on the home page or the 'purchasing' of anything. This was back at a time when I wanted to 'make it' in the 'business'. What a load of crap the whole thing turned out to be. But it all made sense in the end. Some listened. Most were waiting for me to take my shirt off and do something 'exciting'. Neither one of those things happened; though in hindsight, I'm quite certain that the cash would probably had flowed like wine had I sang these songs shirtless
Certainly did for the other guys. Amazing how many $20's fell into the hat despite the absence of talent of any kind.So, give a listen, if you like. Maybe it sparks something inside someone; despite the fact that the tuning frequency is not the most ideal.
If anyone wants any of the tracks, just shoot me an email - billymoschellajr@gmail.com. I could care less about selling anything. That's not the point. Maybe a nice song makes your day and inspires you to go outside and sing to the plants. Or to take some moments of quiet, to bring clarity. Or to kiss your snuggle-muffin passionately. Or whatever positive thing may come to mind. Maybe it's an attempt at spreading rapport, at sharing something into which I dedicated much time and effort over the years.
Aaron - Hope it's okay. Take down the post if not.
My best to all of you here, and thank you for being a source of, well, respite.
